About Me

Neurodivergent, queer, and somewhat socially anxious.
In all seriousness, how does a person summarize themselves? It feels like I forget everything about myself the second anyone asks, so I'm going to do this the authentically autistic way by just putting labels with likely long-winded explanations next to them and we'll see where that goes.

Differently Abled

I've been a jaundiced little fainter since I was a newborn. My first full fledged faint was when I was six on the ride to my first day of kindergarten. I was politely invited to a nicer school that started later in the year, so I got a redo on that 'first day of school' experience. I got diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome at 13, only to be undiagnosed and rediagnosed with Hyperadrengenic POTS as well as Fibromyalgia. Both were a shock to the doctor, who was a POTS expert. We weren't even looking for or suspecting Fibro. I got diagnosed with Ehler-Danlos Syndrome not long after. With mental health it's been a struggle to get a therapist that takes me seriously and isn't a massive 'phobe or 'ist of some variety. Hyper POTS floods my system with adrenaline, the fight or flight juice, which then turns into anxiety. I've had issues with depression my entire life as well as autism, but therapists have historically dismissed my autism (high functioning autism wasn't well known at the time!) or tried to diagnose it with DSM designations that don't exist anymore (avoidant-anxious personality disorder, obsessive without compulsive disorder) but I'm still hoping to find a therapist that isn't a massive ableist or misogynist. I also had surgery for Non-Hodgekin's Lymphoma as an itty bitty baby and still have weird flareups with that which makes my immune system very bad at it's one job. Also I don't sweat, so I've never enjoyed a hot summer day and even a warm shower is my enemy. Was given Tramadol for my chronic pain which is also an anti-depressant and it's done wonders for me. Get medicated for depression, seriously.
Yes I'm aware that's a lot. I'm fine with it. I have a rollator on bad days for walking and a seat-cane when I'm walking fine but don't know if seats will be readily available. I will not be divulging my myriad of weaknesses at this time, but maybe I will eventually idk. I can usually be revived with a salty snack and once I stopped breathing during a faint at the doctor's office. He took a pickle out of his lunch and I revived immediately.

Queer, Isn't It?

I have always been attracted to personality over body. Body rarely factors into the type of person I like, it just happens that fiction favors making men in the qualities I like. IRL I have kissed more femme individuals than masc, though because I've been dating a particular masc individual for over a decade my pan identity tends to be erased by being het passing. People usually shut up after I start posting monster girls.
My gender is a complicated thing. It's a pretty common autistic viewpoint to wonder why we have gender at all and I completely agree with the abolishment of gender. I'm not strongly attached to my femme identity especially after a lifetime of being called a tomboy as both a compliment and an insult (as well as the revoking of the privlege of being tomboy, due to disability) and yet it is a thing I don't entirely wish to abandon, either. The thing that made me nonbinary was a friend joking he's the token cishet of all his friend circles and I said "Well at least you're not the only cis around" and he went "Huh. All my autistic friends are nonbinary. I thought you were too." and my egg immediately cracked as I spiraled down way too much research on gender. Then I realized I identify way too much with gray-aces and went down another rabbithole. I have a dedicated page to my gender here.

Gaming

I like cozy stuff. Games where I can raise pets, build, or otherwise express myself and my creativity. I grew up with Petz, Creatures, The Sims, and Roblox. Novels could be written on the shenanigans I pulled on Roblox and Minecraft and I will cover that chapter of my life eventually. I'm also a massive Sonic nerd and will never not be.

Roleplay Stuff

Absolutely Not

Child abuse, rape, beastiality, hard drug use, suicide, self-harm.
I will NOT ERP with you under any circumstances.

Dislikes

Superheroes, especially Marvel and DC. Horror-focused that isn't Delta Green or Call of Cthulhu. Hard Sci-fi. Apocalypses.

Neutral

Gore, legal mind-altering substances like weed or alcohol, romance

Likes

Dungeons & Dragons including: Forgotten Realms, Eberron, Nentir Vale
Fate, particularly Fate/Grand Order. I like playing Merlin, Lady Avalon, Tiamat, Kama, Galahad, and Galahad Alter.
Drakenier, any point in the timeline.
Genres: Magical Girl, Magical/Supernatural Highschool, Supernatural Modern, Supernatural Medieval, High Fantasy Medieval. Multifandom/Crossovers. If it doesn't have fun fantastical races then why am I here.

Rules

More than one sentence, descriptive enough to consistently reply to. Willing to negociate scenes in advance OOC. If you check those boxes then you're good enough for me.